Those 5 words hit me like a ton of bricks last night. Our young adults pastor Jeff is so passionate about what he does. You know that those words coming out of his mouth belong to Christ-no one else. Jeff has really been encouraging us to be the change we wish to see in the world. To go out into the nations and proclaim the word of God. Every week I am inspired. Every week I am brought to my knees realizing that I am not doing this. I am not evening doing this locally, and with work I have a lot of opportunities. Actually, all you have to do is look at the person across the aisle from you at church and say hi, make a little conversation, ask how they are doing-and I mean truly doing and hope for a truthful answer.

I have a travelling spirit. Just ask anyone who knows me. I have the desire to go and see the world. To meet others who I would at first glance think I have nothing in common with. Yet, it is only this year that I have really been following the voice of God. However, it has still been a struggle. There are many days when I get anxious about leaving my house, my car, my job which blesses me financially. There are days when I spend way too much time doing my hair and make up and thinking about what I am going to wear. There are so many moments when all I can do is think about myself and my needs.

Jeff shared with us last night that there are 1 billion people in the world who do not have life necessities-food, shelter, clothing, money. 1 BILLION. That is 1/6 of the world's population. We have no idea what it's like to eat moldy food or only have 1 outfit that we wear over and over again. Over here, we are made fun of for wearing an outfit twice in the same week or for our shoes not matching our outfit. Why are we not thinking about the bigger issues??

Okay so where is this all going. Unfortunately it leads back to me and my selfishness and my pride. I am scared to lay it all down before God. I am scared that I will never get it back. But how could I think this? The reward is so much greater then these material things that only give me a moments peace. I have been trying to think of ways of getting out of having to go. Not all people are called to different countries though, but I know I have and yet I am scared, worried, anxious, and fearful right now as I look at what my life will be like in a little over 4 months.

What I should be looking forward to are the relationships I will make-inside the AIM community and outside in England as well. The fun activities we will get to do with the local children and teens. The way that we will be able to share the gospel with those who have never heard it or maybe have forgotten it. I need to focus on God's plans and how he will use me for them, not what I plan to do in England. All of us have been called this year to GO. I pray that no one denies this call. I pray that others like me who are struggling will get over themselves and just say yes and let God worry about everything else. Please pray this with me.